Long nights and new thoughts

Still no teeth, but Nathaniel is suffering at night. We are trying teething tablets and I have taken to sleeping on an air mattress in his room during the week as not to wake Joe. He wakes about 5 times. And some time in the night Abigail wakes from it and rushes in there with me. By the time Joe wakes in the morning we are all exhausted but I wouldn't trade it for the world. I am amazed after a hug from daddy they are wide awake and happy. Which is good because you realize you can do a lot with little sleep. Nathaniel has also gotten a lot more adventurous and a big gate has went up in front of the fireplace and the tv. He is crawling quickly everywhere. The funniest thing is when we start a bath. He hears the water running and quickly crawls in there like a lizard. He loves baths. Now for Abigail, it has been ringing home for her. She has started asking about her foster mother and wants contact. I am uncertain if we will get a response (we never have) but I am hoping. I plan on calling the agency this week. I hope she can have a relationship there. My poor little girl needs this. Her gotcha day is this Tues. and she decided she wanted to do something with her friends and then a special dinner with the family. So I am taking them to paint pottery, eat strawberry shortcake or tres leche and getting her a special gift (maybe a locket). Adoption is always a process. I remind my children every day how special they are but I know as they grow they will want more. Know more about their birth family, reach out. I just hope that they will invite me to join them.

On the move

4 weeks ago Nathaniel Seewoo became ours. It feels like he has always been here. In the last week he has learned to crawl (quickly), pull up, and make a shrill happy sound. He is drooling like crazy and sleep has been lacking so I think we are about to see some teeth. We celebrated the 4th a little low key. We cooked out at home then we danced in the kitchen and then Abigail and Nate passed a ball back and fourth. Since then we went to the pool, the bouncy place and got some much needed help from grandma (she stayed a few nights so I could sleep). He now responds to Nathaniel but I like calling him Nathaniel Seewoo. As Joe says he is a mama's boy who always wants to now where I am and his face lights up when I walk into a room. Abigail has been great as well. I am trying to make sure she has friends to play with and special time. I am posting some photos of the 4th with this and some photos we took at Joe's work above.

My Favorite People

Coming out on the other side

Today is 3 weeks from the day Nate was placed in our ours and said here is your son. It has been a busy 3 weeks. He has been introduced to family, friends, coworkers, neighbors. We have started a daily routine. We have been to the Art Crawl, the Y to swim and several Birthday parties for Abigail's friends. But I have two favorite things: one is seeing my two children playing together. Seeing how much they love each other. I hope this is bond they will always have. My other is when I am giving him a bottle alone. He looks up at me, as if to say "it was always ment to be". Sometimes he will stop drinking, grab my hair, open his mouth and give me a huge kiss on my cheek. Last week was a little difficult, he was sick with a cold and an ear infection. I could tell he was grieving as he cried out looking for comfort from something familiar. But as I held him and sang to him as he cried, he began looking to me. I believe this bonded us. So as he came out of this, we were closer. For me, it made me love him more. Two years ago this month I cried in hotel in TX, devistated when I was told we would not have the little one I thought was my son. But now I realize that my true son was not ready. I was not ready. You can't see a future when you are in pain or you are so certain what is your the picture of your future. We I see my peaceful son I know that God sent me what I prayed for years ago, peace....