I know, I know it has been forever since I posted. Probably for a reason. I can say I have been busy with holidays and going to Disney World, but the truth is I have been trying to hide from the idea of my future little one. For those who have not been on this journey let me explain. Each day you know you are waiting with this recalculating clock in your head. But the truth is you begin to doubt that you will h ave a referral by Easter. That your little one won't be home in time for summer. You start reading online forums wondering where am I on the list for a child. People start asking when, especially after the holidays. So you go in protection mode. You enjoy every moment you have with family and secretly wonder and worry. It always hits you on the computer. So I am keeping busy. Trying new things and reaching out to those I have forgotten or lost over time. But don't worry, there is still hope.