Well, my wonderful son, another note. We have been busy cleaning, taking down wall paper and getting ready to paint your room. I am almost ready to send off your care package. I am still nervous. This long wait, it has been a long wait in my heart. I have looked at things for you but not gotten the heart to buy much. But maybe I can get your grandma to go with me and get me excited. I am happy that we got your legals April 21. One step closer. Our I600 is in Charlotte awaiting approval. And lastly I told my boss that the last Friday in May will be my last day working. I want to enjoy my time with you and Abigail. I am also trying to get in better shape. I hope you are healthy and happy and know that you are always in our prayers. We love you.

Referral!!!

It is a few days late, but always them best news, referral! On Monday, I started counting the weeks since our paperwork went to Korea. As I counted each week I got more and more down. It added up to 7 months. We had been told a referral at 6 to 8, and others had gotten theirs. Plus if you recall we started trying to adopt again over 2 years ago. Anyway, I sent my agency an email, just checking in. Took Abigail to the Little Gym. Answered the normal, referral yet, no. Drove home, and as I walked in the door I got a call on my cell, it was the agency. They said how are you doing, we got your email. (I figured they were calling to appease me). Then she said well you have been very patient (not a word I have ever used for myself) and your referral is closer than you think. (At this time I am expecting the typical a few more weeks, by the way Abigail was very quietly playing with magnets at the fridge). She said I don't want you to think we have been sitting on this, but we got your referral this morning. I was in shock. She asked when Joe and I could over everything together via phone and look at the email together. I first said he has a chiropractor appointment (what was I thinking, he would drop that in a second), then I said let me call. I told Abigail and she started smiling with tears saying, "I have a brother!!" Joe was in shock. He dropped the appointment. And arrived at 2:35. (2 and a half hours after the call). This email was sitting there and I did not open it although Abigail said to. We opened it and I swear he makes me think of Joe. Went over everything, talked to the agency, got a ton of paperwork, emailed tons of supporters, called the ped. to look over everything (we would take him no matter what), and took Abigail to swim class. Afterward we registered at Babies R Us. The next day as I tried to ground myself (still in shock and fear) I began filling out paperwork.......
Wens. I finished (I hope perfectly). I mailed it to my agency and having been saying prayers ever since. Did I do everything correctly, will he really be ours, should I start decorating?
They say expect about 4 months to pick up. So here are the details: he was born Oct. 30th, 2008. He already weighs 16 pounds at 5 months 1 week and is 25 inches tall. It my baby boy is Nathanial.

To my future little one: Today is April 1. It has been over 6 months since our homestudy went to Korea. I was certain by now I would have a photo of you, know who you are, and start fixing your room and cooing over clothes. Instead, I am anxious. I jump when my phone rings, keep myself busy and avoid looking at baby items for the fear I will jinx us. Your big sister to be blew out her candles a few weeks ago and wished for you, a second year in a row. As she pronounced it I promised her that you would be sitting next to her next year. I try to show a brave face as everyone says have you gotten the call, trying not to look defeated. I try to not live in the future but I know it will be wonderful with you. I pray for you my darling. Soon I hope to see your face.